The past weekend was one of woes and worries. The worries mostly in my own head, but that doesn't really help...
The worries started when I was going out for my Friday afternoon walk. A message from the landlord's office had been put up on the inside of the entrance door, telling us that from 25th June, that door will be locked around the clock (while over the 17 years I've lived here, it's only been locked during the night). The reason: Lately people with no right to be there seems to frequently have been found hanging out inside buildings in the area, causing worries for (some) tenants.
That was all the info. For my own part, I have not noticed anything of that kind. Actually I've even found my immediate surroundings unusually peaceful lately! So I can only assume that this must have been happening in some buildings; but worrying enough to extend a new locked doors policy to the whole neighbourhood.
This had my head spinning the whole rest of the weekend, and of course it also totally clashed with the relaxation and "presence" (noticing details in nature etc) that I usually connect with my walks.
As I myself have not noticed any strange strangers sneaking about, my own immediate reaction was/is instead to worry about the consequences of locked doors (with no entrance code system attached).
The first thing that jumped to mind was my regular food delieveries from the supermarket. So far (over 10 years now) the drivers have been able to just walk right in and deliver to my own door - actually, to inside my hall. Which is what I need, as I can't lift/carry heavy bags myself.
Now I shall have to be even more alert to watch out for the delivery van arriving outside, and not only open my own door, but hurry downstairs to open the front door for them. And even if that might work, I still worry about perhaps having to explain each time that they still need to help me carry the bags upstairs. Is it possible to include those instructions on my order? And even if it is (I've still not checked) can I trust that they'll read them?? Etc etc. (I think at least some of my fellow bloggers will be able to imagine even more "what ifs" buzzing...)
Over the weekend I took some time to google; and for a while, Google AI gave me hope that it might not be all that complicated after all, because AI claimed that my landlord (a municipal housing company) uses a lock system that allows for some digital solutions - even including food deliveries.
So I calmed down and wrote an email to ask about that. They answered promply on Monday morning (today); but alas not with the answer I wanted. The only way to get in is by key. So from now on (and who knows for how long) I shall indeed have to go down and let delivery guys (or other visitors) in manually.
Head spinning again - and imagining even worse predicaments than how to cope with deliveries... (Not having any family in town, and no trusted friend living really close, it's not practical to let any one person keep an extra key.)
Inventing worst case scenarions not helped by yesterday also receiving news of the death of an old friend of mine, from cancer. I knew she's been ill, and while in the beginning she was bravely sharing about it on FB, it's been a long time now since her last post there - until now, and now it was not heself writing, but her daughter informing friends about her death, and time and place for the funeral. (A long way from here, so I won't be going, just sending a greeting to the family, and a donation to a cancer fund.)
It's sad enough when friends older than oneself pass away - but even sadder when they're younger; and my friend had only just turned 62. Our friendship goes back to when we were in the same youth gospel choir, up in Karlstad - where I had then recently moved to study, and ended up living for ten years. So when I first got to know Ulla, I was 20, but she still only 12, and one of the very youngest members in that choir. (She was very talented, and ended up a music teacher - whereas I was never really much of a singer. But that choir was of the kind that welcomed everyone.) We remained friends (with many mutual friends) through her teens and beyond. I attended her wedding, and I visited her and her husband when their children were little; and the whole family also visited me in BorĂ¥s after I moved here (the children still small, and their visit included a rainy visit to our zoo). And the last fifteen years or so we've kept in touch via Facebook, where she posted quite frequently - even through her "cancer journey", for as long as she was able to. But now all I can do is send a last wish out into the Final Beyond: Rest in Peace, my friend...

There was a bit more on my mind when I started writing this post, but it's getting late, so I'll save that for another day (perhaps), and just finish off with a couple of quotes I've kept reminding myself about more or less constantly ever since my own teenage years...
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:27)
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:34)